Very disappointed to myself..

y i never trust my frens a...if i follow what they say...now i will happy...but i dint follow...
i truly truly hurt.....now i know wat is love blind...bcoz i am...
he gt a girlfren..but i never know....if i know...i will not be his girlfren...
i only a silly girl tat be together with him...trusted him 100%...
i should break with him earlier...n dun give him chance...
i give him chance...give him chance to hurt me again and again...
his girlfren find me just now...call me dun disturb him again..
am i disturb him??no...he is disturb me..make me cant slp,cant read,cant eat...
now i am spm trial...how i concern to face my trial exam...
how could i face all of this tat happen suddenly.......
how could i face my exam....
will i get mental or psychological problem...
i hope i will not...
i hope i can slp for a long period time...let me 4get it...
or...let me lapses memory...
i so hurt now.....i hope my family member will not see this.....i dun wan them know about it...
anyfren that see tis....gv me some supportive comment...i need it so much...
y i so silly.................i feel guilty.....

haiz....cant slp at saturday night(just break up)....n play take picture hear song til 4am..baru can slp..i really heart break..
since tat day...i cant slp every night...watch the window till the sun rise...

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I awake n watch the handphone at 6.38-6.41am...3/9/2011

haha...in 6.30++ morning...i awake n watch the handphone..
i thought i will never end up this relationship wif him if  i dun say ''break up'' with him ...
but nothing is perfect as wat are we think...
in message..he say he with me x sesuai be together wor..
y i dun trust my sixth sense to break wif him early.......haiz..
i feel heartbreak lo....very pain....
i go take a cold water bath....but still cant make my mind calm down.....
haha......n i go his facebook check...
he is in relationship wif other girl....
how i accept all this tat happens suddenly without i set up the firewall....
n now....said all this is no use as all...
i still have 4 days to prepare my spm trial exam..
hope i can accept all this n calm down as fast as i can....