Haiz....Get hurt....but cant tell anybody....just can write in blog....

yesterday midnight....i go find something......
i go find a truth....
she(ex bf's gf)..may be she know me...then she dun let me add her fb..
so i use my fren's fb to add.....it really work..
and...i check her fb news 1 by 1...and down and down to check her old news...
hahaha.................i find something....the truth..
3th september...at 3.49am...he and she chatting on her fb wall...
he post on her fb wall..''really can do it?''....
she comment,''yes,u can.u want me or her?''
read until here...i understand all....but i heart break again..
haha....she want him to left me.....
one hand cant make a clap....
if he never think about to leave me..
he will not do it..
but at the end...he do it...
haha.......the truth make me so disappointed..
and my fren suddenly say...
he dun like me...he know i am wat kind of people..
haha...double hurt-hurt...

Very disappointed to myself..

y i never trust my frens a...if i follow what they say...now i will happy...but i dint follow...
i truly truly hurt.....now i know wat is love blind...bcoz i am...
he gt a girlfren..but i never know....if i know...i will not be his girlfren...
i only a silly girl tat be together with him...trusted him 100%...
i should break with him earlier...n dun give him chance...
i give him chance...give him chance to hurt me again and again...
his girlfren find me just now...call me dun disturb him again..
am i disturb him??no...he is disturb me..make me cant slp,cant read,cant eat...
now i am spm trial...how i concern to face my trial exam...
how could i face all of this tat happen suddenly.......
how could i face my exam....
will i get mental or psychological problem...
i hope i will not...
i hope i can slp for a long period time...let me 4get it...
or...let me lapses memory...
i so hurt now.....i hope my family member will not see this.....i dun wan them know about it...
anyfren that see tis....gv me some supportive comment...i need it so much...
y i so silly.................i feel guilty.....

haiz....cant slp at saturday night(just break up)....n play take picture hear song til 4am..baru can slp..i really heart break..
since tat day...i cant slp every night...watch the window till the sun rise...

haha~my picture~blog walker can add my fb if interest~~bshin94@hotmail.com~

I awake n watch the handphone at 6.38-6.41am...3/9/2011

haha...in 6.30++ morning...i awake n watch the handphone..
i thought i will never end up this relationship wif him if  i dun say ''break up'' with him ...
but nothing is perfect as wat are we think...
in message..he say he with me x sesuai be together wor..
y i dun trust my sixth sense to break wif him early.......haiz..
i feel heartbreak lo....very pain....
i go take a cold water bath....but still cant make my mind calm down.....
haha......n i go his facebook check...
he is in relationship wif other girl....
how i accept all this tat happens suddenly without i set up the firewall....
n now....said all this is no use as all...
i still have 4 days to prepare my spm trial exam..
hope i can accept all this n calm down as fast as i can....

Long time i dint write Blog le~~~so miss u my Blog~~

Long time dint write blog alrdy.....sry~ cant taip in chinese...
in 1st class no bad too~now can b friend wif them~
so good~ ~ ~they all nice~
me also feel so good~
new principle also very nice~ ~
2morrow is Hari Interaksi~haiz~wan face my bad result lu~ ~
my class teacher must many things wan ''bincang'' wif my mother~ ~
haha~~i wait n see~ ~
my math so teruk lo~ ~ >..<
who can teach me math a~ tell me plz...
my classmates all so geng in math...40/40 all right in paper 1 math~walao@@
my spm only can bakar colok wif can get good result lo~.~haha~

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有点疯的人性格很奇怪,有时候超爱说话,有时候可以一天不说话的时候,会拼命的说话,不高兴的时候,一句话也不说；

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如果你爱上有点疯的人…请你疼爱有点疯的人。