Very disappointed to myself..

y i never trust my frens a...if i follow what they say...now i will happy...but i dint follow...
i truly truly hurt.....now i know wat is love blind...bcoz i am...
he gt a girlfren..but i never know....if i know...i will not be his girlfren...
i only a silly girl tat be together with him...trusted him 100%...
i should break with him earlier...n dun give him chance...
i give him chance...give him chance to hurt me again and again...
his girlfren find me just now...call me dun disturb him again..
am i disturb him??no...he is disturb me..make me cant slp,cant read,cant eat...
now i am spm trial...how i concern to face my trial exam...
how could i face all of this tat happen suddenly.......
how could i face my exam....
will i get mental or psychological problem...
i hope i will not...
i hope i can slp for a long period time...let me 4get it...
or...let me lapses memory...
i so hurt now.....i hope my family member will not see this.....i dun wan them know about it...
anyfren that see tis....gv me some supportive comment...i need it so much...
y i so silly.................i feel guilty.....